May 10, 2008
The mind has more space to breathe.
I was reading over Mark’s shoulder the other day and read the above line, written by a friend of his who’s currently living in the Yukon. I suppose there are many similarities between here and there—isolation, snow, highly variable hours of daylight—but most striking perhaps of all is the elicitation of this sentiment, born of space, pace, stunning landscapes, and the clearer experience of one’s own breath.

And it is fitting to be in one of such places now, a week before leaving this country, before ending this Russian odyssey and beginning our wandering journey home. The sun disappeared behind the mountains awhile ago, though the sky has just begun to change, turning the water a soft pink with striking pockets of aqua-turquoise that follow the remaining pieces of ice on their last journey to water. A colony of nesting gulls provides the soundtrack to an otherwise still evening, silent save for the crackling of campfire burning and the soothing lapping of water on shoreline and ice. This is Lake Baikal at dusk. The pearl of Sibera. And she is even more beautiful, more humbling and comforting after a day’s labour.

We began today by taking a winding 2.5 hour electrichka ride through the mountains to Temnaya Pad. At first overwhelmed by the crowd of other campers with similar ideas on a long weekend, the pack soon thinned out and we found ourselves hiking alone, the lake on our right, cliffs to our left, and rail beneath our feet; rails that are no long really functional however, as after the Angara was flooded in the 1950s, this stretch of the trans-Siberian—the Circum-Baikal Railway—was unconnected from Irkutsk and the main line. How did we end up here? After plotting for some time about how to take a train through the route—85km from Bort Baikal to Kultuk—we finally ended up deciding it would be cheaper, not to mention more interesting, to rent a tent and walk this stretch of architectural marvel. And so we are here, one day, 20km departed, soaking in the sounds and smells and stillness of this lake one last time. And it is, I think, exactly what I needed—time and space to breathe, to reflect, to take stock of where we’ve been, what we’ve seen and learned, to let it all wink in before a winding adventure home.
May 12, 2008
Words usually come more easily to me in settings like this, spurred on by the higher awareness of both my physical and mental being, encouraged by the gentle lapping of waves on rock and the fluttering of campfire smoke to the heavens. So too, in these settings, is strengthened an impulse towards romance—strangely so, as there’s little romantic about the blisters on my feet, the soot and dirt coating my hands, the rips in my pants and the aching of my back and feet. Indeed, it is a test o will to sit up long enough to write these words. But they are words that must be written.
We’ve walked close to 50km since yesterday, confirming in my a long expected hunch—I am a canoeist at heart, who will venture of land with a canoe overhead when portages so require, but will never enjoy backpacking in quite the same way. I’ve found myself too lost watching my next step—over railway tie and gravel—to enjoy the stunning scenery, whereas in a canoe one is required to look far ahead to guide the boat in the appropriate direction. Nevertheless, I will try and soak in as much of this place before the day slips into night. Indeed, I just read a passage of Dostoevsky’s The Idiot, when the main character, Prince Myshkin, is recounting the description of a man sentenced to be killed, only to be pardoned a minute before the guillotine dropped. In the 5 minutes before his death, the man sets aside 2 for thinking, and his thoughts lead back to fantasizing about life, about how he would count every minute, appreciate every moment, if only he were spared. It was this very passage that motivated me to move my aching body from the campfire to the shore of the lake, to put into words a few final meandering thoughts.

Yet still I know not where or how to begin—or end. This year has been, I suppose, a lot like the last three days trekking along the railway. It has, in many ways, revolved around train travel, and everything that such travel in Russia brings with it—snowy landscapes, heavy drinking, an unspoken camaraderie with fellow passengers, connected to each other in their transience. As my constant concentration on my next step, the year has also involved a lot of similar getting on, moving along one day at a time, at what sometimes felt like a snail’s pace, yet nevertheless one step ahead. There have ben many a long, dark, cold tunnel, as in this journey, though each with a light of sorts at the end. And then there have been the moments where my breath is caught in the back of my throat at the stunning landscapes and beauty in which I find myself—standing a top a mounting in the Caucuses, or the bell tower of St. Isaac’s Cathedral, watching the sun set behind shamanka on Olkhon Island, trekking along a mountain stream in the Sayan, stumbling across Buryatian lamas making a mandala, watching the sunset (even if at 4pm) in downtown Yekaterinburg, sitting atop a snowy hill with Mark and Guzial, taking in the monstrosity that is MMK on the eve of the New Year. These images, like that o the water of Lake Baikal—the heart of Siberia—are the ones that will stick for a lifetime, while the darkness of the tunnels will slowly fade from view. And, in the romance of such times and places, I think they will be enough—enough to sustain an infatuation with this enormous, mysterious country,a country that Churchill once described as “a riddle, wrapped in a mystery, inside an enigma,” a love for exploring the unknown, for wandering just for the sake of doing so, and, above all, and immaculate sense of this wonder for this fragile, wondrous earth which we call home.
